Touch

Clearly I'm improved if the last time I posted was 3 Feb.10. The lingering limitations that will take a year to resolve remain odd. Though my home daily therapy takes about an hour, I feel like I am at a standstill though forge ahead. I DID put a pullover on last week so I'm back to my turtlenecks. Started back to the gym today for first time since 25 Nov. 09 - and there are many Pilates moves that are arm dependent so I'll have to develop alternate positions. I am walking the hills in Sudden Valley to regain endurance but fatigue and immune system remain big issues. I am sick of going to the Dr. but really live each day as though it was my first.

I ponder daily on the lessons I've learned and written about in these posts. Patience, humility, reliance on others, friendship, love. I am able to catch myself slipping, which generally revolves around patience or judgement. If you are in a committed relationship, the fact is it all boils down to the 2 of you. The outreach (and lack of!) from friends and family to support both me and Craig has been interesting.

My amazement at the support and love Craig has given me does not diminish. I am a touchy / feely kind of person, always 'whacking' people in the arms for emphasis during conversation, hugging when I greet, kissing those who allow. With this injury, everyone is afraid to touch you. While I suffered at the lack of contact with others because air kisses had to suffice, I relished the increase in touch from Craig. Washing, combing my hair, dressing me, and best of all, powdering my butt. His infant parenting skills are superb. Though these are all tactile revelations, the emotional touching is what was most apparent. I have learned these two act as one so equal effort should be put into both in friendship and love.